Live that Dream

Signs

2012-02-16T07:27:00.000-08:00

Are you standing in the moonlight

with your valentine
I guess you see your world in her eyes
just like I saw mine in your eyes
You may say its too little too late
if I asked you to stay
But all I want to say
is that I love you to this day
no rough tide could subside what I feel
I know I sound crazy
when I say maybe
this is just a test of time for you and I 'coz all this while
I have read the signs
You voice my feelings in my dreams
just like I wish for it to be real
let alone that one time when you said
you're moving on to a different page
I hold onto every once of this virtual you
hoping someday it comes true

Now all I want to say
is that I love you to this day
no rough tide could subside what I feel
I know I sound crazy
when I say maybe
this is just a test of time for you and I 'coz all this while
I have read the signs

I don't buy
that you were meant to just pass me by
I want you to open your eyes
and realize
Life's not always an accident
this ain't any coincidence
don't you feel connected like I do
I know how it hurts to lose a chance
'coz times like that may never come again

and if you're alone in the moonlight

I wish I was there as your valentine.....

Blind

2012-02-05T06:54:00.000-08:00

It all started sometime in February end
when for the very first time you called me and said
you were the one my girl had talked to me about
never imagined we'd stay in touch until now
It was different, it was good
how I wonder
and what kept me tied to you
was your humor
You were a friend and yes, a boy
and it meant nothing more
I was girl and yes, a friend
your talks proved them so
I guess I let down you expectations
but I'm not sorry
you escaped confrontations
based on a picture of me
Now that you're sitting in front of me
on this 29th of January
I see, you can't take your eyes off me this time
how you wish you weren't so blind

You get to me out of the blue
texting " r u der"
we share the scales but you're obtuse
difficult to comprehend
All that I do amazes you
and yes I'm an optimist
but you don't know that I do know
that you're a chauvinist
You're all alone and trying hard to pass the test of time
and yet life seems all bland is what you confide
looking out for a constellation you were so busy
that you failed to see the firefly, yeah that was me
I guess I let down you expectations
but I'm not sorry
you escaped confrontations
based on a picture of me
Just 'coz I got you ou on this "calendar date"
you thought I meant it to be blind
anad now I see the color of your face fade
how you wish you weren't so blind

Sure you'll find a place in my commonplace book
'coz we shared some really good times
so finally it was nice meeting you
not even close to first line
You escaped confrontations
based on a picture of me
"Was I close to your expectations"
is what now you're asking me
We may or may not look the same
as the years fly by
you define yourself on what you weigh
the most- the heart or beautiful eyes
Do you feel like turning back time
and starting all over again
you did what you had to do all this while
there is no bargain....

Into her

2012-01-30T06:35:00.000-08:00

A promised land and a happily ever after
no more no less is what you prefer
and then she made her way in
the fairy tale you were living
though you had your princess by your side
you were captivated by her smile
For her, you stay in a never-never land
which she never understands
you're a year younger than her but, it really doesn't matter
for you are so into her
you wanna be part of her world
You reached the stars
when she talked about your smile
guess it didn't leave a scar
when she mentioned the love of her life
The fragrance that rests in her hair
her laugh, her grace
all that she was made you say
"How can I not feel this way"
But for her, you stay in a never-never land
which she never understands
you're falling short in age but, it really doesn't matter
for you are so into her
you want her to be part of your world

You maybe first string
but all that she is is naive
it's futile to string along
'coz in the near future she will be gone
So would that stop you
from thinking about the way she looked
racing heartbeat when next to you she stood
Confetti showered everyday she came
and someday it will rain
you're falling short in age but, it really doesn't matter
for you are so into her
if she could only be your girl......

I can't tune in

2012-01-25T05:53:00.000-08:00

Attitude- was what defined you the first day I sat opposite
Not again- maybe was what you thought finding me so repulsive
Who cares- like impressing you was something on my list
But wait- yes, it was you who did
My talk was so offhand
that it caught you off guard
and I could see that you didn't wanna unhand
You say I'm ingenuous and that around it your world spins
but your ways make it seem like its me
old timer, running 48
its disgusting when you wave
below tables so no one will see
you better know I can't tune in

You didn't knock me off my feet when you said I'm extremely beautiful
instead I realized how absurd it sounds regardless the truth
3 days from then it looked like your world stopped spinning
and you blamed me for being the reason behind it
I can't play the way you want me to play
and since then when things get out of way
you link it to being a "Thursday"
and I just stand and hear you say

That I'm ingenuous and that around it your world spins
but your ways make it seem like its me
old timer, running 48
its disgusting when you wave
below tables so no one will see
you better know I can't tune in

But there are somethings in you that I look up to
your perception of how sweet is life
the way you talk me into
staying happy and leaving the rest behind
But just so you know this is no kind of telltale
I'm helpless 'coz no matter how, you get it all the wrong way
But its your mistake
to think I'm blown away
to think I feel the same way
on Thursdays again and again and again
its your mistake.........

Mars

2012-01-22T05:41:00.000-08:00

In my life this is the first time
I've come across someone of your kind
you wore a silent and a stern look
no sooner you were an open book
You started of with a smile and it took quite a while
for you to say "Hi" as you passed me by
and now you've got my back and you lend me a hand
whenever I never seem to understand
Your opinions and your mindset
and my aversion to what you said
heated things to an extent where
I had to break the ice with chocolate
I'm glad we had a glitch at the start
'coz we got it all cleared and know what each other are
I'm sure the image of me what you have is well
and to me you are a real good friend
You've got the look of Mars
You're an amazing person ignorant of your worth to all
and real soon
You'll be gone for good to realize
what you wanted from your life
but as I told you, I'll remember you
when I listen to "talking to the moon"

In my life this is the first time
I've come across someone of your kind
you wore a silent and a stern look
no sooner you were an open book
Now I'm left with few days to tell what I need to say
that not all are lucky to meet people your way
there's a spark in you that spreads all around
and you've done nothing to walk around with your head down
Just stay the same way
the way you are
there will come a day
you will know what you are
'coz there's someone lucky waiting for you to cast your charm....

You've got the look of Mars
You're an amazing person ignorant of your worth to all

Beautiful

2012-01-05T07:24:00.000-08:00

In a beautiful white satin
flying along as my hairs do
at every wink of my eye
I'm masked by the twilight
everything seems so quiet and tranquil
leaving nothing but me, myself alone
looking at that star shining so bright
feeling that its your hand in mine, I need to hold
You're not here, but I can feel your touch
a kiss on my forehead, is that too much
to ask you while for you
I'd stay beautiful
You're far away and I know that too well
and I'm trying so hard to blend
all I see is you walking down the staircase
at that moment I blossom like a bluebell
and it seems as if time just stopped so
I can live you for more than 24
the zephyr paves my path towards him
and as I approach, he vanishes into the air so thin
You play me and its driving me insane
all of it is real 'coz I can feel the pain
you're the reason I'm in love with love
as my heart says

All the dark clouds cover by
violent thunder strikes
times get vehement like this
but I stand still unshaken
not withered, tethered or broken
'coz its you that I don't wanna miss
You're not here, but I can feel your touch
a kiss on my forehead, is that too much
to ask you while for you
I'd stay beautiful
Won't you come down to me
look into my eyes and see
that its for you
I'd stay beautiful...

It would be like

2012-01-05T06:44:00.000-08:00

Lost in the night at 9 I'm staring
straight standing on the road so long
there's no one but me in red so sparkling
flying leaves singing me a song
This is not the first time 'coz its been a while
I've dream't about this to happen way back when
I spoke my feelings and my friends were laughing
that you became a part of me , but I tell
I know how it would be like
if I told you how much I love you
since the day I caught you lay your eyes on me
I know how it would be like
if I told that you felt the same too
no longer then I have to live that dream
'coz you'd be here standing right beside me

You'd talk interests and I would stay numb
only to hear your sweet talk
and when you'd ask me what I've been doing lately
I'd smile saying "nothing at all"
I'd be waiting by the phone longing for your text
blacked out when I'm clueless what to say next
but you'd be patient on me always trying to soothe
reminding me the reason why I love you
I'd be wary, very naive while moving on
as time gets very tougher than we ever thought
I'll just let it be the way you want it to
I'll never do a thing that would sabotage you
I don't want to
I know how it would be like
locked in each other's arms so tight
walking with love in the air by the sea
I know how it would be like
if I told that you felt the same too
no longer then I have to live that dream
I'd know how your heartbeat would make me feel

Tragic Flaw

2012-01-03T05:33:00.000-08:00

I am fine because I moved on
is what I thought until now
and now I came to know that I'm strong
in never forgetting how
my life was when I had you back then
a honest speechless connection
Do you wonder if there's someone out there
waiting for you to adorn their life in every way
hear out clearer 'coz then real sooner
you will find yourself so closer
to me for every wish that I let out as a tear

No one but you're the only one
who got me coming undone
your absence is so profound
that I lose my senses of what's going around
I guess I don't stand a chance
for you have let me lose your hand

Do you wonder if there's someone out there
waiting for you to adorn their life in every way
all I saw was a shining stalwart
and so I can't get myself to learn what went wrong
I'm sorry if your reason seems to be a tragic flaw
I know that what we shared was true
not told, not expressed but you understood
and you abandoned all, holding your virtues
I f you would come around
I will let my armor down
for I'll be winning when I lose against you
you can't erase this feeling
'coz its your dwelling
so turn back time and love me the way I do
I'll make you realize that you need is I
and this world would never be the same
so let me make a mark as if this day is the last day

All I saw was a shining stalwart
and so I can't get myself to learn what went wrong
I'm sorry if your reason seems to be a tragic flaw......

The day before New Year's Eve

2012-01-02T06:01:00.000-08:00

Last night you came into my mind
but it was the very first time
you had me thinking of our days
in an everlasting beautiful way
I guess I am no more
the girl I thought I was
and I'm setting myself free
by changing the way I see
Its the day before New Year's Eve
and I can't help but watch, its raining
so is this day crying out to compensate
all that I've been through till yesterday
Once it was the time that moved on when I stood still
and now I'm pacing fast with nothing to sabotage my will
nothing beats the pleasure that you derive out of pain
nothing surpasses the measure when you do it again and again
time and tide wait for none
but it doesn't weigh against what I can become

There are somethings I wish I could change
but I just can't muster the courage
not fearing what might befall
but the fear of saying it all
Maybe its better to leave somethings undone
if the other way would yield no satisfaction
Days from now when I turn back to this time
I do know that it will surely make me smile
'coz all I did was follow my heart
not sparing a chance that could tear me apart

Its the day before New Year's Eve
and I can't help but watch, its raining........

Go with the flow

2011-12-16T05:21:00.000-08:00

Ladybird on the leaf
how I wonder if you could tell me
whether whatever happens, is it meant to be
I'm passing by so many streams
and yet I dare to dream
'coz there is nothing to lose but one day win
Days are running along so fast
and so are things slipping from my hand
I can't change it but I can change myself
by saying I had my way in bygones
and now it's time for me to be strong
you can bring out a rebel in oneself

Your beauty makes you so complete
you move on to where you want to be
you're tiny but you've got so much to teach
We search out but never look inside
it's all too hidden, get it out in light
it's a tough road and so hold on tight
never mind if you're fragile
I am so far away from what I was back
sometimes wishes do get stacked
I've sailed on a boat not knowing where it headed to
Forced actions, sacrifice
unheard cries, nothing would suffice
fell in love but he didn't know the truth
The silver lining in all of this
is I never know which way it twists
all I do is go with the flow
hoping it will take me where I want to go....

Lie to me

2011-12-15T06:36:00.000-08:00

Is this a game of hide and seek
'coz I'm running out of places to look
you seem so far, yet so near
not even close to feeling it's true
There hasn't been a day where I haven't gone back
to when I chose you
I took the bold step of changing tracks
with a pride of searching you

and now..
Lie to me that you're somewhere around me
and watching me be
Lie to me that you're just taking time
to finally set things right
Wished for you always to a shooting star
but I'm afraid 'coz they too fall
so lie to me

Just when I thought I wasn't falling short
you started to take your turn
moments like water slipping through my fingers
you played me so well in return
Raising questions against my faith
sooner I'll realize was a mistake
but suppressing isn't right always
at times letting it out is the only way
so now...
Lie to me that for once in my life
what I'm feeling is right
Lie to me that when you come
there will be nothing left undone
If not today, well at least tomorrow
try to know why I need you so
don't you ever leave me and go

You left no room for dead heat
'coz you are always leading
I'm afraid, that my towering hopes will crash one day
Days come and go
but I ask of you to see that I'm not left alone
I am not in a fool's paradise
and this to you I confide

Lie to me that you heard me
although you know I'm being obsessive
Lie to me, for all your lies
will shine as memories that I'll remember by.........

Stop trying

2011-12-06T06:38:00.000-08:00

Stop trying so hard...

Can you recall the times you weren't yourself
maybe not 'coz its infinite
how may times you knew you weren't faring well
and so bid yourself goodbye
how many times you broke your promises
thinking that this wouldn't get so far
how many times you failed to realize
that you did end up breaking your heart
No, you don't deserve this frustration
when you gave your heart and soul to make it work
but stop, you need to put a hold to your expectations
'coz I am sure there is someone waiting for you to be his girl
So just stop trying so hard
to be someone you're not
you don't need to be scarred
to show what you are

How many times you waited in your car
looking out for him, saying "one last time"
how many times you stood in front of the mirror
so you would catch his eyes
how many people you made friends with
just to reach him one day
how many classes you lost track of wondering
if he feels the same
Though the list seems endless
are you sure its worth
all he has been is ignorant
and never will know that you're hurt

So just stop trying so hard
to be someone you're not
you don't need to be scarred
to show what you are
Stop trying so hard...

I survived

2011-11-25T03:20:00.000-08:00

I'm running my mind, searching for you
I know its too difficult
'coz everytime I find you slipping through
I hope its not on purpose
'coz the fact that I breathe your name everyday
is as true and profound as your shadow that doesn't fade
hear me....
Your thought's flooding my mind
can't hold no more inside
and you're not here to help me beat this pain
I'm drenching by the shore
I'll call out just once more
before the rising tides wash me away
Maybe the reason for this violent storm
is you not confronting
and then I wouldn't care even if the world ends
if saw you last second
I had been telling myself that I will live today
and fight tomorrow
but it seems like a thousand years of your sweetness
shower
Can't you just hear me out
I'm screaming out so loud
don't stop yourself from reaching me out today

I'm drenching by the shore
I'll call out just once more
before the rising tides wash me away
And I froze when I saw you standing far
you walked to me but stopped 10 feet apart
I could feel no pain nor could hear the rain
all I did was see your face
I took one step forward but you stepped back
with that smile I didn't seem to understand
In a single blink you were gone
left me speechless wondering how
I feel the water kiss my feet and the sun shine
You caught my attention and I survived
Its no burden to call you this way more often
if its the only way to see you again
and surely I will wait until that day
you come for real, never to turn away

Come Back

2011-11-24T21:18:00.000-08:00

Girls my age think of
places to hang out with their loved ones
they are living their fairy tale
and I'm watching, wondering when I'll be there
You came when I was young
when I wished for someone like you to come
guess I waited too long to tell
how much and what you truly meant

This is me
asking you to come back to me
I'm crazy about you
I'm crazy for I think you feel it too
I'm not trying to impress anyone else 'coz in the end
you're the one and I don't need to pretend

Never once have you called my name
it didn't matter then but now it isn't the same
you were there right beside me
but my ego won against what i feel
It looked fine from where I stood
but on the other side it wasn't understood
I endured all your marks
but I'm afraid they are turning into scars

Tell me
what you want me to be
I'm crazy about you
I'm crazy for I think you feel it too
I'm not trying to impress anyone else 'coz in the end
you're the one and I don't need to pretend

For the first and last time
let me show you how you're my life
in your heart rests mine
without you I'm a lie
You're gone
and now I know that is what went wrong

I fear no one
and so this is me saying again

I'm crazy about you
I'm crazy for I think you feel it too
I'm not trying to impress anyone else 'coz in the end
you're the one and I don't need to pretend
You turned me into
someone, until then I thought was surreal
and so how could you
leave me as if it was a dream
You're the one I need to be with
You're the one against I don't wanna win
You're the one and so please come back to me

Never to be named

2011-11-02T04:09:00.000-07:00

I stare at all that surrounds me
and all I want to do is scream
'coz you made them seem so materialistic
If your purpose was to break my heart
can't you hear me applaud
for your victory will shine as being historic
You made me believe in angels
when you said I was your girl

but then started the eclipse
lost in you, I didn't see it coming
You never stopped yourself from pulling the strings
you had your fun, you played it all
my love was innocent but you took advantage
Some part of me still does miss
being with you but not again will I fall
'coz with time you will fade, you who is never to be named
You weren't there for me when I was scared
until now I thought it was unfair
but it made me stronger, I thank you for that
The night we sat by the lake
I guess I misunderstood what you meant when you said
"There is no turning back"
You are betrayal in disguise
your dream of us, your beautiful lies
You may have won today
but real soon you will realize there's no escape

You never stopped yourself from pulling the strings
you had your fun, you played it all
my love was innocent but you took advantage
Some part of me still does miss
being with you but not again will I fall
'coz with time you will fade, you who is never to be named

It worked your way
and you walked away
Never will I look back at what we were
I'm glad it didn't work
The way you had your time pulling the strings
one day you will face it all
and you'll turn the pages back only to find my name
I would be the best thing you have missed
too late for she has moved on
'coz over time you did fade, you who is never-to-be-named..

Dear Life

2011-10-27T07:36:00.000-07:00

I loved you when you gave me the best of everything
better than what I could ever imagine
now I'm at this point, so clueless
I'm not fearless
Dear Life...
I've lost it, can't move one step ahead
I'm frustrated of you being stagnant
I want you to change
'coz I can't live this way
It's my first time in this huge battlefield
no armor to fight against the enemy
so the least you can do is help me believe
One side I can see the way to my dream
and also the hurdles it involves
and on the other side I see myself risk everything
just to be someone I'm not
I'm now at the center
and I just can't figure
coz'
Dear Life..
I've lost it, can't move one step ahead
I'm frustrated of you being stagnant
I want you to change
'coz I can't live this way
It's my first time in this huge battlefield
no armor to fight against the enemy
so the least you can do is help me believe

Give me the strength to confront it
if you say, you can't change it
I hope its for now
get this done with somehow

Dear Life...
when you decide on moving on
I hope you go the way I want
'coz when you helped me believe, I did so in that one
my dream, the only one

Life, just this one..

Bitter and cold

2011-10-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

You liked the girl in me who doesn’t say a thing

so innocent of you to think we could have a happy ending

there is more to that to feel, not just superficial

I’m sorry for I didn’t find you special

I know what you felt

because I saw you try so hard to catch my eyes

but this is not the end

‘coz I’m sure there’s someone who wants to tell you “you are mine”

I may have been bitter and cold to you

but that’s because there was no other way to tell you

When you were painting our lives together

I was doing the same

but with someone else in the picture

I just didn’t know how to say

And now I regret for not having said

‘coz then you’d know the reason for me acting that way

I know what you felt

because I saw you try so hard to catch my eyes

but this is not the end

‘coz I’m sure there’s someone who wants to tell you “you are mine”

I may have been bitter and cold to you

but that’s because there was no other way to tell you

Now I see that you have crossed boundaries

to live a life that you mean to

and if I’ve left you with scarred memories

please forgive me, I didn’t mean to

And today its your birthday

how fast a year ran through

you pulled me back to those days

reminding me how I was cruel

I put on a smiley face and e-mail you

wishing you, truly saying I’m happy for you…

You should know

2011-10-26T07:06:00.000-07:00

I didn't like you when I first saw you
later I found myself all confused
it took me quite a while to know the reason for this contradiction
You the person I'm talking about right now
and yet you want to hear it from my mouth
fine I give up, its you baby but this ain't any fiction

You are the star that shines
to brighten up my life
You should know it wasn't easy
walking down the streets thinking
would you tell, would you tell you love me
You got me walking past your door
words never meant so true before
is that it or do you want to hear some more
Well by the time we started talking
by talking I mean exchanging glances
the year 2006 wrapped up
but you stayed the same and my patience was all bottled up
"This is it ", I told myself
'coz it can't work in 1 direction
but I never stopped seeing
you in my dreams

You are the star that shines
to brighten up my life
You should know it wasn't easy
walking down the streets thinking
would you tell, would you tell you love me
You got me walking past your door
words never meant so true before
is that it or do you want to hear some more

Well here's the most important thing I'm about to say
listen closer, do you remember
when you came to me and asked me out on friday
of November
For a second I thought I forgot to breathe
that's the best thing that's ever happened to me
That night I was crazy
'coz I still couldn't believe
that you told, that you told you love me
I got you knocking at my door
how much do you want me to say I love you so
'coz I'd say it all loud until you know
until you know baby
there can be no one else who loves you more than me

You are the star that shines
to brighten up my life
You should know it wasn't easy
walking down the streets thinking
would you tell, would you tell you love me

'coz I still.....

2011-10-23T03:17:00.000-07:00

Yes, there were things that i did anticipate
but never in my dreams did I think it'd be a name
your name in the morning, noon and night
you never seem to let go off my mind
When I hear our song played, tears swell my eyes
the month of May, the clear goodbye
if you had answered "No", yes it would've hurt
but its so much better than not saying a word
And to this day I'm paying for what you did
and I'm sure that over time you've forgotten it
I'm sorry for that's not how it works with me
'coz I still
Miss your eager eyes
Miss your crooked smile
Don't wanna be free
Want you to want me
I did wanna let it go just like a dream
my heard beating louder, I wasn't ready to agree
that the times I've spent, the feelings I've felt for you
was something so trivial to let loose
Falling in love again ain't that harder
but forgetting you ain't that easier
I'm sorry I can't turn the pages faster

'coz I still
Miss your silent tricks
Miss your banded wrists
Don't wanna be free
Want you to want me
I've let out the truth
donno how long to wait for you
I'm hoping you've got few things to say
I've let out the truth
donno how long I'll wait for you
so tell me, are you coming my way?
If you are, I've got no words to say
and if you're not, its pretty much the same
It doesn't matter which way you choose

'coz I'll still
Love, love you
Miss, miss you
I still
Don't wanna be free
Want you to want me

Cloud 9

2011-10-23T02:59:00.000-07:00

I'd heard about 2 sides of one coin
but never experienced it
I wanted to know how it felt on cloud 9
but gave up realizing
That not all things you wish for
would come right at your feet
and then you came along and proved me wrong
and I started to believe
'coz you opened my eyes
and showed me how life's
not only black as dark but also white as snow
You held my hand and paved way
to an extra ordinary place
so dull but now you've made it glow
You swept me off my feet
'coz I could hardly feel
my cold feet but your warmth embraced me tight
Right at that moment you won
and with you my life had begun
I could see it all in your eyes
I wait for the sunrise, eager
to be with you and never let go
the way you lock fingers and pull me closer
just makes me want you even more
You're the one that I remember
when I'm sad and low
and you take me to the 8th of October
when you sang our love song

'coz you opened my eyes
and showed me how life's
not only black as dark but also white as snow
You held my hand and paved way
to an extra ordinary place
so dull but now you've made it glow
You swept me off my feet
'coz I could hardly feel
my cold feet but your warmth embraced me tight
Right at that moment you won
and with you my life had begun
I could see it all in your eyes

The way you walk to me where I stand
Your flawless smile
I've never known a better life
and when you reach over my ear to tuck my hair
people look at us two
and you whisper "I love you"
You then sweep me off my feet
and I can hardly breathe
you're more than what I wished for or ever mite
Time and again you won
you are the only "one"
And for sure I was on cloud 9....

"were, are and will be"

2011-10-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

When young the world gave all that I liked
but now there are times when you can be denied
for every yes there's a no
I didn't know
You were a passing cloud, I understand
but you did rain on me which you shouldn't have
To this day i wait
will you come again
You knocked the "damsel in distress" out of me
and I started liking the way you made me feel
And now talk about love and I always see
you as the one who "were, are and will be"
If you'd come right now at this moment by any chance
all I'd ask of you is a moonlight dance
We've got our pasts, was that coming in your way
you can't just me out thinking things won't change
you can't undo what is done
and so don't tell me it was for fun
I am a paper unwritten, untouched
so come and write our story before its crushed
How did not come to end with "we"
when you are the one who "were, are and will be"
was it the start or the end that wasn't right
you didn't answer but you said goodbye
I've tried to forget whatever happened
between you and me but very often
I find you sitting in the back of my mind
and you've replaced everything in my life
So tell me did you know
I don't think you do
But its true....

Name our story

2011-10-20T07:35:00.000-07:00

So what do we name our story
haven't you thought about it
or are you still fighting your feeling saying you weren't part of it
Maybe we stood at the extremes
at different wavelengths
but don't forget its all part of one spectrum, doesn't that make sense
Did you say we're far away
and so things have changed
don't live life like its default, change the rules or maybe the game itself
You know how our story began
when we were young and wild
completing each other
Don't stay blind, flash back to when your eyes met mine
Oh! heavenly divine thereafter
So shall we talk this over?
It doesn't have to be perfect
something over which we connect
like our first unexpected tryst about 8 a.m in winter
Like on my birthday when I saw you
heavens I never thought I would
Every moment, every petty pleasure, the month of december
You know how our story began
every page in your mind
our book's larger than life
Under the sun , in the rain
unwinding timeless tales
so we'd tell one day
that "that's our story..."
I can't lie to myself and neither should you
its not rocket science to be understood
its time we turn ourselves in now
The past has gone with the wind
and the present is sailing
now its in your hands to shape our future that is untold
Its time for you to decide
I'll stand by your side
crossing fingers hoping you'll say what you'd say 4 years before
that's back when you loved me
back when I was your story
You know how our story began
when we were young and wild
completing each other
Don't stay blind, flash back to when your eyes met mine
Oh! heavenly divine thereafter
So what did you name our story?

The other side

2011-10-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

18 and its all I could see around

true love blossom or fade along

always wondered how it'd be on the other side

It wasn't something that I yearned for

but there were times its all I could think of

I guessed then it just wasn't time

I walked through that year not bothering how would that day be

when I see you and know you're the one for me

Little did I know that it was time for

life to show me the one thing I waited for

thought it can't get better than this

You didn't fit the picture that I drew

and then I realized all I had in my mind was you

I still stay up all night sometimes wondering if it was right

because I'm not myself since that July

I didn't know who you were, where you came from

you made me feel needed, that was enough

it was transcendental, so pure and strong

I lost track of time when you were around

and I failed to see that I was losing ground

doubted if it is with you I belong

I stood still but you changed like the weather everyday

and I prayed that its with me you'd stay

Maybe a mistake but not a regret to have you in my life

and I won't apologize for I did see it in your eyes

So I'm here standing on the other side

life changes, you can't run or hide

and when you face the truth, don't deny

Let bygones be bygones, you still need to move on

to only meet that someone you're meant for

I still stay up all night sometimes wondering if it was right

because I'm not myself since that July

True

2011-10-18T07:01:00.002-07:00

You taught me how to fake a smile
I wonder whether our dreams collide
If they do, where are you?
There are nights I cry myself to sleep
dreams so real, wish I could freeze
those moments, so flawless
You count everyday very much the same
I do so by noting it as the day you aren't there
Oh! I never thought I'd come this far
hoping someday that you'll turn up
'coz this feeling tastes more sweet than sour
and I'm true, isn't that enough
Give a shot just this time
and I'll show how life's
got a lot in store for us
All we need is you to trust

I'm the yacht and you're the sailor
In your way I feel much safer
Its stronger, I surrender
You were the sun I revolved around
and now I'm losing way 'coz you're not around
This darkness is not a pretext

No one ever will love you as much as I do
If you could only look into my heart, you'll know its true...
If you're meant to feel special you'd come any ways
'coz I'm sure there's no one else to make you feel that way

Don't think its "too little too late"
I'm on "better late than never"
Just let your heart speak for itself today
Don't put it down like you've done forever
Oh! I never thought I'd come this far
hoping someday that you'll turn up
'coz this feeling tastes more sweet than sour
and I'm true, isn't that enough

Complicated

2011-10-18T07:01:00.000-07:00

I can hear the clock ticking slow
and I don't know
is it now or was it back when
I wanted to know
the reason before you say you aren't sure
When I turn around its your name I see
and when I close my eyes its about you I dream
It's been a whole year since
I have missed
your sweet face, your bright smile
its complicated to resist
like the fog and the mist
I've felt you around all the while
On the shelf as I finger the books
I can't help but look
at the last page where I've spelt your name
end of day waiting i stood
thinking you would
at least smile at my face
But all I recall is you running away
though you knew how you felt and how you wanted to stay

It's been a whole year since
I have missed
your sweet face, your bright smile
its complicated to resist
like the fog and the mist
I've felt you around all the while

When I see a star shine all I do is wish
you get all you need and all those you miss........

Small country story

2011-10-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

A small country story of a boy and girl
who didn't seem to know each other for a while
and realizes that she's fallen in love
which never seems to subside
Reading her in the book somehow
reminds me I do know how she's feeling now
Like those times back when I felt alive
like nothing could stop me fly
like never would be so perfect a feeling
the way you mad me feel
high

As the pages fly by
I realize this story ain't like mine
he loves her as much as she does
and admits that it ain't just a crush
The only thing that didn't seem to workout
and we are miles apart
but back there was a time I felt alive
so sure it wasn't lie
like never would be so perfect a feeling
the way you make me
cry

But I still remember you, miss you though you didn't turn back that night
she will feel complete with him beside
and I can't even I ask for, your smile.......................

Too good to be true

2011-10-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

A summer evening lost in deep thought
standing at the door
on the balcony waiting for
The gray sky to give its best shot
lavender, pink and white
leaves me a silent sigh
Though the colors change every dusk
I don't find it betraying not to trust
I look deep inside
but when someone who you love
mirrors that you'll know how
it makes you cry
Smile that I wore, reason being life
seems like a chore and I'm losing my mind
I'm so confused
they make you feel so good, back when you thought
no one ever would, to realize now
its too good to be true
Minutes to seven, birds are rushing to their nests
charm of the rustling leaves, a moment so serene
twinkling airplane flying across the sky, wishing that someday
I look down from up there

And when you have a chance
to do the things that
you had always thought your life lacked
you just can't beleive it
And when I stepped to play, something more serious than a game
they parted ways, leaving me estranged
I did'nt see that coming

Smile that I wore, reason being life
seems like a chore and I'm losing my mind
I'm so confused
they make you feel so good, back when you thought
no one ever would, to realize now
its too good to be true

Last June

2011-09-25T07:26:00.000-07:00

The last time I saw you
never thought it'd be the last day for us two
me in green you in grey
before I came you were there
seated on the dias
hitting few strings on your brown giutar
I'll never love anything more than what I saw
Its held like a pause

Then you played a song that I din't know: didn't matter to me
co'z I sang our song in my mind when you played the strings
we'd set everything right and be on the same page soon
today is the day I beleived, last June.....

You talked and you smiled at
my friend standing right beside me
What was holding you back
to say all that you mean
Time I couldn't buy
and I saw myself hide the truth
Didn't wanna know if it was a lie
all those years with you

I watched you digress but failed to beleive, blinded by love
To misinterpret you in my life as a stroke of luck
I yearned for you to turn one last time before I leave
But when you didn't, I walked away, my heart cried silently
I was torn to pieces, teardrops on my pillow every night
and you were all set to fly away leaving me empty hand
and when I could take no more
I erased out our moments I held close

Why'd you have to go
'coz this didn't work out, thought we could be friends
But my feelings for you will settle for nothing less
Yet I'll wait for that moment for you to realize
last June you broke a heart and that was mine..........

For Always

2011-07-26T03:55:00.000-07:00

I know I wont break down
confessing it all now...
Look around
the places you sat on when you saw me
The feelings your eyes talked over made me
Aware that its to you I'm bound

Remember the stairs, watching me from down
Caught my glare that day, when I was let down
And that stare, you had me all wound
You are the best dream I'll have for always
I found my realm in you though we part ways
Can't think of no one ever filling your place
its with your memories I like to stay
Feel you heart
Did it beat real faster when I walked past you
or rather skip a beat when I talked to you
You'd answer it only if you've felt your heart
I might have looked away
but not to hurt you no
To this day I still don't know
It wasn't fair when I let you go
I close my eyes
and I can see you moving on when I lost it
I tried so hard to but failed when I saw it
coming back over and over everytime
I miss my smile but its yours that I miss more
You're mine, I've never felt like this before
So one last time
If I've ever made your heart beat do say
You're everything that I've wanted, not to forsake
I'm only meant to be with you for always
You're the best dream I'll have for always.................

Simple Blow

2011-07-26T03:34:00.000-07:00

Holding tight
in my palms wishes I
never wanna let out of sight
I portray the future in my eyes
just you and I country side
I was resisting
but it turned tempting
to lose hold and see what beholds
i knew i was silly
for this was what i believed
and you're not here to save my heart from sinking
'coz little did I know
that dreams do unfold
with bitter answers scattered on a deserted shore
shattered dreams I let go by giving a simple blow
Dearest memories of the one I miss
plays through my mind again and again
though possible I never would risk
the only thing thats keeping me sane
was my love for you
a game you played loose
'coz if you did'nt its I you'd choose
You're gone and nothing interests me
not the sunflowers, not even the breeze
just those few letters, shouting out my story
without you even speaking a word
I felt there was a lot I heard
silence is golden
silence left me broken
no matter how far I've come
far enough to lose myself
I will leave a trail, hoping that someday
my simple blow reaches you and you whisper my name...........

Wings of Desire

2011-06-18T08:00:00.000-07:00

No one in your life has ever looked at you

Hinting there is a way where you two can head to
Wonder swept you off your feet like you are never gonna fall

Everything that passes you fades away like leaves in the fall

Wings of Desire

takes you so much higher

Like a bird high up in the sky you're having an aerial view

Of him watching you

Lying on the grass he looks like an angel

His love is so warm for you , so fragile

He is the best thing that has ever happened to you, confess it to him now

Before he gets too far away to lose out your voice in the storm

Wings of Desire

takes you so much higher

Like a bird high up in the sky you're having an aerial view

Of him watching you

"There will be no other person to ever fill your shoes

In case you leave me broken saying it was for good"

Please don't you ever do

Wings of Desire

I've tasted the scent of zephyr

Our fingers intertwined in the twilight

Lets walk by the country side...

Counts 28

2011-06-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

My friend in college used to like this guy

Tall &handsome and all he did was pass her by

No one but me could see the sparks fly

He grew more stronger in than out his shell

was it holding his pride 'coz that didn't fare well

and I told her to write about what she felt

What can I say about this

when it reverts a twist

when least expecting

I seemed to play the role she didn't

For another guy who is now missed

Now I'm starting to know

Though he's near no more

My feelings are stronger

Months started to fleet

But I didn't weak

Though haven't seen him in a whole year

He would think its bizarre

but as the bright red star

He led my way

To pen down songs about him that counts 28

The way your eyes told our story in "You"

The way I took what came in "Breathe You"

You being faultless in "Don't blame you"

You did things that "Caught my surprise"

I'd risk anything if you'd just "Come back"

Wondering how like the stars you're "Into the sky"

I would "Live that dream"

A "Small town story"

Oh! I was crazy

Though I'd asked you to "Turn away"

I was "Ready to sail" to "Feel I'm cared"

'coz I've started to know

Though you're near no more

My feelings are stronger

Months started to fleet

But I didn't weak

Though haven't seen you in a whole year

You would think its bizarre

but as the bright red star

You led my way

To pen down songs about you that counts 28

Have you ever felt like this before

Like standing right outside the door

Resting your palm on it like he could feel

With your fingers tracing a heart

You wish he turns the doorknob

And face his shadow which he couldn't see

At the end if I could ever make this better

I'l flood his mailbox with my songs in letters

Feel I'm cared

2011-06-10T02:26:00.000-07:00

My little eyes look at you wondering where had you been all these days before

I seem to be flooded with questions though I'm 2 and you're nothing but 4

Though you didn't seem to understand

You took me in your little hands

At that moment you felt it simple

To hold, to care and be responsible

0h! can't I just see that now

Turn the world upside down

To feel I'm cared
Oh! I don't know how

but all through dusk and dawn
You were there

You hugged me telling stories

Let me believe in stars

Taking all my worries

You stayed awake for hours

As the sand trickled down the hour glass

I remember you telling me how grownup I was

But being the elder sis, you were the same

Making me upbeat, perfect and sane

When you'd boss me around day and night

I hated you 'coz that's not what I deserved

But when you'd stay numb after a bitter fight

I'd do anything 'coz it felt much worse

Now in my 20's , you think I don't need you anymore

Trusting me with decisions now on

But how could you forget

that the bond we held

was guiding me all this while

Even your slightest whisper will resound my whole life

Oh! never let go of me

'coz I wanna feel

I am cared

Oh! I don't know how

but all through dusk and dawn

Please be there

Hug me telling stories

let us watch the stars

let me keep my worries

and we'll talk all we have for hours...

Leave & Live

2011-06-09T07:54:00.000-07:00

All this while I was waiting hoping things would turn around

'coz whenever I doubt, I used to hear my heart beat loud

saying it'll be fine, now or in sometime, I need to wait

to only realize I'm wasting my time for its left no trail

And now I feel estranged, left out in the rain

tasting the pain, when betrayed

Now its gone out of control

Though I had said to myself before

To leave and live

Its nothing but your very own feelings playing the games

Making you believe that all you see runs at your pace

You hide it, its wrong and when you speak its all gone, like you've never said a word

Expectations rising higher, you repeat it again all over

To feel again like you're estranged, like you're left out in the rain

to taste the pain like you've been betrayed

Now its gone out of control

though you had said to yourself before

to leave and live

With life turning bitter it would only be better if you know the truth

that not all the stars up in the sky shine down at you

so don't feel estranged like you're left out in the rain

or taste the pain 'coz you'd not be betrayed

Before it goes out of control

you better tell yourself like never before

yo leave and live

Turn Away

2011-06-09T04:08:00.000-07:00

I thought the day would come where you'll know that my feelings were true
when I play the years that passed , I can't help but turn to that page with you

again
all I've been telling myself is "that's a lie"
yet I don't seem to understand why
People do change and so eagerly I did wait
but nothing seems to have changed though you were here then and now away
I've started to see it the way you did like you knew it served us right
but this timeless tale might have turned out just fine if you'd given a try

I am lost
lost in the dark for so long
the dark that plays your memories in the air
memories that pain
Take them away
turn away........

You moved on like you had nothing to hold on
so is it your innocence or the ignorance that I need to stand on
leaving it to trail away , you think I don't understand
well then you should know that I've walked for all but its for you I ran

And if one fine day
I see you some where
you all alone or with your better half, I don't care
'coz I'll never walk to you and talk
I'll be scared as I'm now
To know if you've really meant all that I've felt and neither spoke out
and how our lives would be having each other and no broken hearts

I am lost
lost in the dark for so long
the dark that plays your memories in the air
memories that pain
Take them away
lost in the dark too long
all I need you to do is cast a spell and say it again that you're gone
Take them away
Turn away..................

But me

2011-06-09T03:40:00.000-07:00

Miles far away I'm here safe and sound

knowing it'd be better if you were around

a new journey of life, you've started to live it now

wish everything's fine in your new town

I urge to look at you once a day

somethings that's never happened till date

fearing I'll find my self caught in a hurricane

'coz I never imagined it'd end this way

So I'll close

my eyes and think of places you'll go

to find that someone you don't know

anyone but me

'coz all those times you didn't see

me waiting for you, how could you not feel

No matter what you do

I'll remember you my whole life through

The weather does waver, sunny and rain

but its you in my mind that doesn't fade

slapped by the present I wake up

but void in me can be healed if you step up

And when you find that someone , love her the way I loved you

'coz I don't think you'll like how it feels if she leaves you

the last thing I wanna hear is you heart broke

let it not , I hope

So live by her side each and every day

treasure every moment with no mistakes

let her know she's been loved like never before

hold onto her and never let go

No matter what you do

you never seem to pass me through

you'll never know what I've been through

Hold Onto

2011-05-06T08:06:00.000-07:00

Sitting by the side

of a table I looked at the crowd that passed me by

wondering

"Where are they headed to?"

'coz I know there's no exit that way in my high school

Its this quiet day

and all I can listen is my heart say

"Better watch out for" the reason I'm there

so cautiously with care I'm out in the corridor

I start to walk ahead

with my heart having said

that I'm gonna find the one I'm looking for

So I start to search out

'coz I never wanna miss out

no more

Oh! the timed slowed down when I saw your face

so innocent, so calm, but caught in the race

were people rushing and I was trying to hold onto that phase

So clueless like a puzzle with a missing part

deciduous, was I in the office

watching through the panes

to see if he'd caught a glimpse of me, 'twas driving me insane

And that was it

when I knew my way was towards him

so I ran out the door

that very moment and his debonair left me numb, I was injured

'coz it seems like he was blinded

to me but no one else

as my presence didn't even stand a chance

to make him believe

that it was really me waving my hand

He didn't see it clear

and sooner he did start to blur.....

Ready to Sail

2011-05-02T07:31:00.000-07:00

You were born and it was the day

they knew life's never gonna be the same

every home recites this tale

it didn't matter, be it color or the weight

those little fingers swept away the pain

and now you're ready to sail

And today, it's true you've heard them say it all

and all you do is remember how it was

days when you cried while it hurt

to this day where you've learnt

to smile though you want to cry

You took off to school in your bus

"Don't forget the lunch", oh! it was a rush

7 years passed by

then its high school, you just can't seem to wait

to know"boys", the topic of everyday

life felt much more lighter

Then came your 16th birthday, the much awaited teen year of your life

and you can still flashback to those days of sleepover having fun all night

though you can turn the pages fast

you can't neglect the scars it left behind

days where friends you had were few

'coz all you gals did was argue

Passing the teens you steeped into your 20's

grad college, fests and late night parties

but that wasn't all of it

there were relationships

that ignited sparks all around

and all those heartbroken thought it was the end of their song

Mistakes do happen

its an experience

so better watch out before you leap

Be mature enough to know that life ain't that easy

Delusion

2011-05-01T08:02:00.000-07:00

11.35 it clocks at night while my pen is still running

A hurricane of thoughts with nothing but just the lantern burning

Pages turn by themselves for the gush of wind through my window

Oh! I wish it rains now and I'll head out that door

I'll stretch my arms wide open hoping to feel the best

Nevertheless cynical, wanna leave out all the rest

Guess its the same old song forever

I would feel the rain drip

like I'm losing out of words to speak

Standing in the same place again all over
I can hear the rain breeze

Ironic it sounds like requiem

Just another page of delusion

Whats left to expect from an illusion

You plan to work things out the way you always wanted

Hardly anything in this world turns exactly the way you planned it

Come out of the remorse 'coz it just might get worst

Like you are stuck in this prison

where there is no solution

You can't play the cards right when there's nothing favoring you

Like the way I'm now, no single drop to choose

If you only had an umbrella

blocking out the fears to come

Sparing out the vain drops

It would've never mounted this higher

So high that I'm losing my vision

To see that they were teardrops

If only this could stop.....

In Love

2011-05-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Tendentious I was erstwhile

when I thought it ain't worthwhile

talk about maturity

fog around me rose up high

letting me to see the shine

of my own destiny

And I guessed it right, I've fallen in love

'coz the cupid has struck me and I know its worth

Listening to my favorite song

sketching past memories along

I love to stroll in the boulevard

Knocking down a sternous girl

from snitty to pastoral

all I like to say

is I've never felt this great

I do know it took so long but its never too late

I stop by to glance again when I spot a rose

smile to myself when I'm all alone

arms wide open , crossed fingers I've learned to hope

'coz I'm truly in love

Earnestly with fingers crossed

wishing t'was a shooting star

that I'd caught in the space

just give me a sweet signal

I'll run to you like a gisele

and sigh when I see your face

'coz I've truly fallen in love

hope you know this feeling ain't like anything in this world

When I see your name around I just start to blush

you made it seem so strong and real, it ain't gonna crush

autumn leaves, dark chocolates well resonanced

'coz its true love that I've embraced

This is me confessing

The journey start is brand new

and I need to face the truth

don't wanna hide or escape

'coz I urge to see you again

your love has charmed my insight

so strong it'd never die

and all I ask of you is

Please let the sparks be alive as I believe

I'm lovestruck and I don't wanna break free

For Once

2011-05-01T06:46:00.000-07:00

Back were the days where everything was perfect

looked like nothing could ever go wrong

days you loved doing things as a prefect

and all you do now is bury deep down

Never knew its start, never knew it would end

so lost in a pompous show of life

things you wished for and the time you spent

with the best of friends who were so right

For once if the world around you just stood still

you'd run for miles up and down the hill

to live those moments that you missed out

You'd pass every day like it was the last one

laugh out loud sitting with your loved ones

sort everything you knew so it wouldn't crack

if only those days would come back

Its just me and nobody else

walking this lane is what you feel

but do remember the field on the other side

always looks much more brighter and green

Well this is not the end, not the armageddon

why stop and doubt that nothing can be done

it's all about your life and not you

so don't undermine but speak the truth

That

For once if the world around you just stood still

you'd run for miles up and down the hill

to live those moments that you missed out

You'd pass every day like it was the last one

laugh out loud sitting with your loved ones

sort everything you knew so it wouldn't crack

if only those days would come back

Its practical that life keeps moving on

not always can you say "Bring it on"

so don't be foolish for it to repeat

and all you can do is only wish

That

"For once if the world around me just stood still

I'd run for miles up and down the hill

to live those moments that I missed out

I'd hear out what my family had to say

remember the tears I've wept when betrayed

apologize to whomever I turned my back

if only those days would come back"

Caught my Surprise

2011-05-01T05:57:00.000-07:00

You were the one sitting tall in the back seat

just one of the rest who looked right at me
the day I entered my class for the first time

not so clear 'coz you were all blurred out

I knew nothing about you

you were not in the picture then

and all the feelings were so new

and it all started back when

You stood down the staircase looking at

me coming down wondering, "What you at?"

you didn't seem to let go the next time
and that was what caught my surprise

You were smart enough to check out whether I looked at you

blocking my way though you knew with that attitude

your body language and looks didn't serve you right

when you wanted to show me that you're uptight

Misunderstanding

or were you pretending

If I did strike a chord

then why didn't you give a nod

Like when you stood down the staircase looking at

me coming down wondering, "What you at?"

you didn't seem to let go the next time

and that was what caught my surprise

And I remember that day when I happened to look

at you looking at me like there's nothing to lose

those 5 seconds were all enough

to prove whats going on

Waited for you everyday

eager that you'll have few words to say

and when the cloud came

Oh! it did shower me pain..........

Can I then ask

why you stood down the staircase looking at

me coming down, "Where you headed at?"

you never did let go the next time

and that is what still's caught my surprise

Don't Blame You

2011-05-01T05:10:00.000-07:00

I'm running in the field, its so serene

and I can feel the pain run through my vein

it's you standing there, a blissful shine

Teardrops, opened eyes, its just a dream

helpless 'coz that's what I always feel

can't handle it, I donno why

Is this right or wrong is what I always doubt

But I've leaped so forward and all that's in my thought

You were the reason for my presence which you surely did know

and you knew I felt the chills whenever you stood close

why is that so

but I don't blame you, its all my fault

Guess you tried to make it clear there's nothing left more

but your eyes did the talking so I wasn't sure

leaving me to hope

but I don't blame you because I read you wrong

I don't blame you its all my fault

I standby to look at the foliage

something about doesn't seem jaded

and if I'd tell you, you'd say its a lie

It's a drizzmal noon ,I'm here all alone

humming a tune, I'd wish you'd play along

don't wanna think of any other guy

My legs held tight I sit by the window wondering how you made me like this

silent, lost in thought, so rustic

Your silent walk, your eye talk

just take my breath away

And when you stand tall, speaking for all

I just stop and stare

Maybe you thought I'm intractable

probably did all the best you could

being together right there we were masked

If that time would ever repeat I'll make the call

so I won't be sitting alone writing this song

You were the reason for my presence which you surely did know

and you knew I felt the chills whenever you stood close

but I don't blame you, its all my fault

Guess you tried to make it clear there's nothing left more

but your eyes did the talking so I wasn't sure

leaving me to hope

But I don't blame you because I read you wrong

I don't blame you because I made you read me wrong

I don't blame you its all my fault